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| There are lots of thing i want to tell you. There are lots of thing i want to share with you but you seems too busy, so i don't want to distract or "bother" you. Because i know you have lots of thing to do and me either. I don't expect you talk to me all the time ..aww..i don't know...i don't know wat to say....we are fine this way  but im not sure if there are a distance between us. maybe my feeling is wrong right now and at that moment ( 11:11 pm ) i still like you so much. Lets me tell you something, i dreamt about you last night and that is such a beautiful dream than ever. I AM GOING TO BED NOW AND HOPEFULLY, WE COULD SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN TONIGHT. i miss you baby....and you haven't called me "h...." for couples day after something happened. anyhow, i don't want you to do call me like that if you don't want. Because if you do that but you don't mean anything by that and just b/c you know i like to be called that way , then don't say anything until you actually want to........... huh...I miss you so much ............and i " hate" you so much too | | |
|  Hearing some noise from the bathroom was made her up . She didn't want to get up because she couldn't sleep so much last night for some stupid reasons. But unless, her uncle would get mad at her again so she got her " heavy and lazy" body out of her bed and started to use her laptop which becomes her habit now. And what she doesn't expect for every morning was coming. The freaking " beast" opened her door and said out loud that she needed to get out her room , leave her laptop and she needed to be ready to go to work. Was she scared about that ? Did she get hurt by that anymore ? The answer is no . She's use to be with these things and deeply in her mind , her thoughts, her freaking uncle doesn't mean anything to her now and she didn't care about what he says anymore. She always tries to ignore what he always taunts her when he gets mad. She usually questions herself that if her life would be better in the future or she would get more hard things in her life. She knows everybody likes to have a beautiful life and she either. But otherwise , would you know how to solve problem when it happens and could you still stand whenever bad things come to you. She thinks about that a lot and finally, she is willing it happens in her life. She'll try all her best to face with it and now , she greatly appreciate her parents because they gave her chance to study in Us. In fact , she didn't feel this way before. She had never thought that she would stay away from her parents and she would have to do everything by her own. As she said before , she appreciate that ..................And now, she's tired to write and kinda lazy.......hahahaha...she'll write more next time. At this moment, she doesn't feel life is suck anymore.....Actually, its suck sometimes but remember that , we can't know what'll happen in the future. A thousands of things will happen today, tomorrow and in the future also. So she stops to " whine" about her " hard" life. She is trying to live optimistically every day and hope the best for her future. Awwwwwwwwww........huh, she stops now.....hihihi...she has no more to say though........ But she wanna say out loud that " She misses him so much” |
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|  Sometimes, i feel so lonely and homesick. Just 1 year ago , i was still w/ my family , lots of friends and i had never known how the word lonely was . I had never known how was it feel and never known how my family mean to me ? I wished i could get away from my parents to do watever i wanted b/c they were so strict to let me hang out w/ my friends. And now, i know all my thoughts was all wrong....totally wrong....i know they love me and i love them so much too.....i wanted those time could come back so i would be a good daughter ..i would study harder to satisfy their expectation. Right now , i'm all alone in a different country where i don't have any relatives. Do you know how does it feel when you have to live w/ some people that you really don't like them....do you know how does it feel when you live in a free country and you don't have any freedom to do wat you wanna do ? But i usually hide my feeling inside and i couldn't hid it anymore and i was alomost cry out when i thought about that last night . I tried to called my mom and i wished i could talk to her a bit so i would feel better but she was busy. Then, i tried to called my aunt who really close to me . But we just talked in 10 mins b/c she knew it was late and i needed to go to bed soon. Even though , she promised to me that she would call me this weekend. In few last mins when we said good bye , my tears dropped down....and i started to cried....i cried as a child ...as someone who never cry before. At that time , i was so emotional. I don't have anybody by my side....i don't have anybody to calm me down at that time and console me........Hunk ghost and my best friend are not w/ me.....i really need you b/c nobody understand me as well as you do ...nobody...i wish i could get out this freaking family as soon as possible....... But i feel better after i cried....Everything i had hidden inside was overed...... | | |
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reading at home -----------> go to the restaurant---------> just to eat ----------> read again Tu nhien khong hieu tai sao ma hom nay nhiu` tam trang de? viet' blog the khong bit . Nhung ma la viet' bang vnmese nen the nao hunk ghost cung hoi cho minh cho xem. Ma thoi khong sao chung nao hoi thi tra loi thoi. hihihihi....thuong hunk ghost nhat' . May' hom nay dang song' vat va? voi' cuon sach' A Tree Grows In Brooklyn. Luc dau thay' buon ngu? wa choi` nhung ma cang doc thi thay' cung hay day' . Thoi thi` cu' continue reading that...........hihihihi  everything will be  | | |
| hi everybody ! Eventually , i'm back w/ my xanga now. Yahoo Blog is so boring and i don't wanna see these people when i open my blog so i'll stop to use it for a a while. Omg, i have lots of personality webpages such as yahoo 360 , xanga, facebook......... wow....i can't image how could creat lots of like that >.< I'll go to school in Sep 4 and i cant wait for it b/c i wanna get out of the house as soon as i can . Or because i don't want see my freaking uncle and his wife 24/7 .......actually, i'm not ready for going to this new school so much.  But wat can i do though ? It maybe good or not ............awwwwwwwwww....i don't wanna think about that now . Anyway, time to read book now....hihi...my stupid homework. I DON'T FORGET TO SAY THAT " I MISS YOU , HUNK GHOST " I MISS YOU A LOT............. ..MUHHHHHH.........LOTS OF SWEETEST KISSES FOR YOU AND LONG HUGS TOO............  WILL US LOOK LIKE THIS WHEN WE MEET AGAIN HUNK GHOST ? I HOPE ^_^ | | |
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